Family? Friends?

This morning I woke up thinking about my large extended family. All families have their issues..right? Well mine are far and long reaching. I have my own personal demons concerning my immediate family that I'll have to address at a later date...This is about some of my extended family...Its a person in my family that will throw you under the bus for whatever, will lie on you, befriend your enemies etc...

BUT THEN this person always plays the victim. I wonder if this person really understands the things that they do. If they understand that you don't have to be a shitty person to be popular? Frankly,its sad that this person has to go to these extents to make friends..

I feel bad for people who can't stand on their own. You don't need someone to be your friend who can't accept for who you are. Which is why my circle of friends is so small. I just do NOT have the mental fortitude to put up with the drama I endured in highschool or the first couple years of college. I just don't have it in me to be worried about what some insignificant person thinks of me. Life is too precious, too short, too fragile to be petty.

Life is filled with thousands of beautiful sunrises and sunsets. Filled with so many places to travel to see..So many different people to enjoy, meet, learn about. Life has countless memories, joys, and tragedies. Life isn't what other people have done to you its what you do for yourself and who you surround yourself around.

In the process of writing this I've found a lot of clarity on a subject thats been bothering me. I'm trying to decide what I want to do with the rest of my life...Lawyer? Entrepreneur? Chef? Author? Psychiatrist? I'm stuck in the midst of all those decisions but I see that I can do and be so much more than my brain understands.

Time for a change.